Big Changes!

First blog! This is something I thought about doing right as I was moving from Texas to Colorado to chronicle my new life, but that just didn't happen due to the craziness associated with moving, starting a new job, and ending a relationship.

I graduated May 12th, started driving my truck with a UHAUL in tow on May 14th, and arrived in Loveland, Co in the wee hours of May 15th. I was lucky to have my boyfriend at the time helped me move. I can't put into words how much he helped me during that time!

I have heard that the stress of moving is second only to a death in the family. I didn't think it was that bad! By the time I left I was so sick of school that I was happy to pack my junk and git. The last few months of school were so busy I didn't have a lot of time to think about what I was doing....I only did what needed to be done. I think that is what saved me from having several anxiety attacks- I didn't have time to second guess myself.

Now I'm here in lovely loveland. I assembled a shelf tonight that I had ordered about 5 weeks ago and as I was putting my knick-knacks on it, I started to realize that the duplex was becoming home- not just the duplex.

I recently came back from a job in Nebraska, and as I drove I thought to myself "I need to meet some people!" I also realized as I was driving that the day I returned from Nebraska was Midsummer, or Litha the Pagan summer festival. One of the things I put on hold while pursuing my masters was my spiritual side, and I vowed to get back when I could. So, combining these two thoughts, I jumped on the internet to google midsummer festivals around the area. I ended up finding a local Pagan group through meetup.com, and decided I would be brave and go to their festival. I was pleasently surprised! Everyone was super nice and welcoming, and I was so glad to get a chance to talk to someone who wasn't my boss! Now I think my boss is great, but it's good to socialize with others.

I joined two other groups at meetup- one is a paranormal group, and the other is a singles adventure group. Let me address the single thing- T and I broke up the last time he left Colorado, which was about two weeks ago. Before he left the last time, he had been at my house for three consecutive weekends with a friend. While it was comforting to know he was in the state, it was hard to know that each weekend he was there was one of the last I would spend with him. It was also hard because I had just moved and didn't have much time on the weekends for myself. The day he left was really really hard. It still is some days I mostly try not to think about it. I have tried to rationalize the reasons why we wouldn't work, but the heart isn't rational. In my head I know why things had to be the way they are, but my heart still hurts. I have been in love before, but I can honestly say I have never loved anyone the way I loved him. I'm starting to get sappy and teary eyed....enough of this!

It's late, and I think I shall retire. I want to be rested for my first free weekend since I moved! I may ride my bike or hike. Later tomorrow I'm supposed to go to a bellly dance thing with someone I met at Litha...oh yeah- I started taking belly dancing lessons!

~blessed be~
~~~m~~~