So I learned the lesson that actual work when out of balance with actual life is bad. What I apparently failed to connect is things that are work-like also count against balance even though it wasn't actual work.
What am I talking about?
I decided to move in with my boyfriend in December, and since then I've been 'working' almost non stop to make it happen. First it was purging stuff from the house, then it was the packing, then it was the moving (which happened over a period of a few months, since I was relativity close and could move jeep loads sporadically), and THEN it was getting my house ready to rent, which was WAYYYY more work and time than I ever expected. Now that the house is rented, we have projects at our house- building and planting the garden, rearranging the basement, STILLLL unpacking....
It's been one thing after the other for about 5 months, with almost zero down time.
I've slowly been going downhill, but the last 2 or 3 weeks I've really noticed that I'm feeling off. It's funny- for only moving a half hour north to a town I was already familiar with, I feel out of place still. I dont necessarily know where everything is, or where to go, or what to do. There are events I never would have attended before on week nights because the drive was too far....and now it would be easy, but I never think about doing anything because I'm so used to living farther away.
One of the results of the above is that I haven't gotten out of the house much since I've moved, which was starting to drive me a little batty.
I also haven't been playing much music since the first of the year...being busy and stressed for me basically crushes any creative impulses I have. I know from experience that I do better as a whole when I'm playing music, but it's hard to convince myself to play anything when I'm exhausted.
Now that I recognize all of this, it's time to get out of the house more, play more music, and enjoy the fact that I no longer have to deal with my house!